now i have to read the gospel of thomas.

minneapolis 2001

okay could the universe be any clearer about what i’m supposed to be paying attention to?

THURSDAY, a wise man at zikr: (roughly) don’t feel guilty if you don’t feel moved to pray for world peace. you’re not powerful enough to change the whole world all on your own anyway. if getting through the day is all you can possibly manage, then just pray for that. it’s fine.

FRIDAY, psychiatrist: don’t take on any more than what is really yours to take on.

SATURDAY, another wise man: “…think about what this saying from Hazrat Inayat Khan means for you: ‘Life is what it is; you cannot change it, but you can change yourself.’ Focus yourself on the area in which you have control, that is, yourself. Do you wish to see justice in the world? Become just. Does it bother you that other people lie and are cruel? Become truthful and kind. Realize that the only way that you will find the qualities you hold dear is if you make them real in your own life, regardless of the behavior of others. […] In other words, without losing your compassion, be independent. Care about the world, but don’t let your inner feelings and sense of self be determined by external circumstances.”

TUESDAY, therapist: quotes this thing from the gospel of thomas: “Jesus said, ‘If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.'” (Gospel of Thomas verse 70 as translated by Elaine Pagels)

this is all beginning to circle in on itself and shout that i need to get busy. but i’m not sure what the next step is.

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